single not ready to mingle

As I slid my thumb across the screen and whispered "hello?" into the phone, I found my voice locked at a certain volume. A summer love became a fall disaster and now all I want to do is cry.

His apologies were too late after the words had been spoken. Our relationship was not strong enough to break the barriers that stood in the way of true love. It's crazy to think a few weeks ago I was in his arms, counting the stars and dreaming of a life together. So much can change in a few seconds of time and so many tears can be caused by change. The words stopped until "I still love you.." was spoken. Ending an intense break up with the word love is the hardest ones to end. One day, I will look back and smile on the choice I made because I know that my logic triumphed my emotions. But not this day, on this day I will let my emotions take control and not use logic in any way.

Being single will be a new beginning for me. I welcome this beginning, but it will be a tough start as I will still have tears rolling down my eyes. I lost my best friend that I've known since kindergarten and dated for over half a year. My whole world isn't falling apart, it's just my heart.

I'm gonna play it off like it's cool, but inside I'm the kid who just wants to cry in the corner.