hawaii sucks

Today, I watched my boy leave for Hawaii on a 10 day vacation with everything beside him except me. With everything I had, I tried to stay strong and nonchalant about the whole thing. As soon as they walked off and I turned around I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks, telling me that I couldn't hold in my emotions any longer. Before he left, he kept trying to tell me something important, but he kept on stopping mid sentence. He said something like "I like you so much, beyond anything. And there's a shorter way to say it, but I don't know if I can." Maybe it is love that I feel towards this guy I know so well. Four months may not be a lot to some people, but these past four months have been a long enough time for me.

Amy Lynn, I admire you. I can't believe you went that long without seeing your man and here I am complaining about 10 days. You two are just too cute, and that ring is beyond beautiful.

Sydney, girl, I admire you as well. I don't know how you did it, and I guess will continue to do it! You are one strong person!

We both miss each other like crazy. It's only 10 days, I don't know why I'm getting so emotional over this. I just miss getting to watch him sleep on the couch while I scratch his back and hearing all those sweet words he'd tell me when he gets realllllly tired. I want my baby back. 

I have one of the sweetest boys, y'all. 

When he starts bull riding, I don't think my heart will make it. I worry about him too much I guess.