It's like I am having to start all over again. I am standing on square one with no idea how to move my feet. Every time I try to move forward a collage of memories fills my mind, it all comes back but he never does.
It was nothing he told me or anything he did, it was the emotions that coursed through my body. I don't know if I will ever feel that way toward someone again, but I don't know if I should. Part of me knew it was going to end up the way it did, I just wanted to believe in something better.
His world moved to different beats that I wasn't used to, but once I got accustomed there was no going back. I never questioned him, the devil was pulling me toward an angel and that seemed impossible to resist. Maybe he knew when he saw me, he knew I would lose my balance and fall too hard. When it all comes down to it, it was never about losing him, it was all about losing myself in him.
Nothing says trouble like a duck face and a peace sign from the middle school days.
This sounds a lot like Taylor Swifts song, "I Knew You Were Trouble." the part where she talks in the beginning. Purposeful or a weird coincidence? :)
ReplyDeletehahaha it totally does!
DeletePurposeful! I love the first part of that video!
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ReplyDeleteI read all your blog, and eventhough I can relate to lots of your posts, since I know how hard is to go back and forth with a guy, I seriously wasn´t able to understand when your relationship started and when it finished? You wrote that you left guys that were stupid, ok so what happened with the last one -or I don´t know which one was- were only 9 months, and as far as I can tell this 9 months were on and off.... I really hope you are done with that story, that it seemed everything but love..
The fact you read all my blog makes me want to give you a big hug and a best friend certificate! Ill email you about it to explain it a little more.
DeleteWow, I know how hard it is to let go, and to forget someone you loved so dearly. I can relate. I feel in love with the wrong boy, and later realized I wasn't in love with Him, but his words. HIs smiles, compliments, and big blue eyes. :) I absolutely love your attitude towards moving on and letting go. Your lovely idea of how you shouldn't fall in love with someone like that again. I love all your posts because they always relate to my life, and always help me! <3
ReplyDeleteAwww thank you Jenna!!! Your comments always mean so much to me!
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