boys boys boys

Okay, so yeah. Hear me out before you're like "oh my gosh, another one?!"

I've liked this guy ever since the day I met him, some people's faces just stay in my head and his face has made itself at home. There is a rule about putting new boys on my blog and here I am talking about another one. I let my fragile heart analyze the friendship until I would consider him future boyfriend material, then I welcome him to my blog without his knowledge, and then something usually happens and I friend zone him. It has become such a vicious cycle.

These butterflies came out of nowhere. When I met him, I had no idea we would get so close. The more I find out about him the more I want to know him better. If only he wore hipster clothes, but that's just asking for too much.

I find myself looking down at my hand and imagining another guys fingers close to mine. I let my eyes observe how he treats those around him and then I let my heart get carried away with how he treats me. We feed off of each others energy and I absolutely love being around him. He makes me laugh, this guy is such a character.

The guy I was crushing on before ended up friend zoned, but we occasionally have hang out sessions where we talk for hours and hours and hours. These hours we spend together are full of great advice and he talks a lot about his life and his struggles. Friendship is fantastic.

Understanding that the boy who stains my face with tears is not worthy of what I gave him is a huge thing for me. I will let a guy into my life that will say words with a promise that he plans to keep. I will choose a guy who makes me feel wanted every day instead of worthless. I will fall in love again, but it will be a much deeper and richer love than I experienced before.

I'm searching for a selfless guy and when I find them, I tend to throw a dance party.