shame on me

Shame on me for caring, shame on me for loving. 

This isn't an apology, this is just a few words screaming for a little recognition.

What if I drown in my tears by the end of all this? What if one day, you walk away because you got tired of putting up with how stubborn I'm being? Or what if I never get over the fact that you destroyed my trust, heart, and everything I had given you?

I'm throwing up walls like your a murderer. There's no trace of blood on your hands so you believe you are innocent, until you realize you are guilty of another sin. Instead of killing you stole everything I had to give.

I'm sorry for trying to make you try. But again, this isn't an apology because I'm waiting to hear a genuine phrase from you first. I thought by this point everything would be falling together but it's not. I'm just lost in a big ole maze wondering which wall I will end up running into next.

They say "don't run back to the person you need to be running away from," but love seems to overlook all the negative situations staring me in the face.

If you are brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello. But what if you know that a new "hello" will never be like the last "hello." I don't want anyone else.

The greatest fear comes when I think you never loved me, or her, or anyone.
The greatest fear is that you love yourself too much to ever love me the way I need to be loved.