behind the scenes

You’re with her behind those curtains, as I still stand in front of the crowd. You left me on the stage alone while you excused yourself so slyly. The little we have left together is full of deceit. Now that I can point fingers, I am just as guilty. In the dark, you hide the action. Give it up because our town will not allow hidden things to stay so. This hurts me more than you will ever know; we had a chance at love. I thought that this time was it. My mind keeps playing tricks, the same addictive melody over and over.

I hit the black key on the piano, for this is the tune of my life. I move to the melancholic sway of notes. Despite everything, music never fails.

Fooling around with her makes you the extreme fool. This side of you is not the side I saw at first, there was a gentleman that wooed me till I was swept off my feet. Before I knew it the gentleman walked away and left a stranger to woo me. The change happened so quick that I was puzzled, until I realized I had fallen in love with a disguise, not the real person. You gave me these strong feelings that I did not know what to do with until you gave me strong reasons to throw them away. How could you do that to me?

Here, let me open these curtains so everything you have committed against me can be exposed. The audience will be shocked but my composure will never change. I have always known the lies you throw at me but too ignorant to know what to do with them. Be honest for once in your life and put everything out in the open. I do not understand why you let me go through this pain. And I do not know why I’m still standing around to take it.

What you stand for is nothing. You make everyone else around you fall so that you appear taller. Don’t bother to reach out for my hand anymore because I refuse to be brought up off the ground just to find myself back there minutes later. That insecure vessel in your body seems to be too strong to fight.

You didn’t have to do that to me. You don’t have to be like this.