i'm hiding


I'm going to hide over in this corner to where my eyes no longer see what they have been seeing these past few weeks. I have to leave my boyfriend in Vilonia while I live in another town that is over half an hour away. It's just that reality isn't my best friend right now.

I have a decision that needs to be made and thought through, but instead I keep pushing it farther and farther away from my mind. I refuse to think about an end to what me and him have had for half a year now. He is my everything but he is also still a junior in high school. Maybe I should just close my eyes again so that I might forget how attached I am to this boy who makes me smile. This was not supposed to happen, I was not supposed to end up falling in love with my bosses son right before I go off to another school in another town by myself. I feel hatred towards the situation I am in right now, and a lot of it. If I leave him behind, my world won't be the same. My heart would stay with him in the town I want to get away from. But if he's in this town, I want to be to.

He's so young. We are at completely different places in our lives. But, he has led me to a place that contains all these "swept up" feelings and emotions that make me want to never leave. I feel as if no other guy could replace the one my heart seems to want to hold on to. I never want to let him go.

Never ever ever.

1 comment:

  1. Hey girl! I'm going through a similar situation right now, and I would love to connect and maybe we can figure this out together. I just graduated as well and am new to the big people world.

    kwylee.blogspot.com

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