take me back mom

  

I'm a senior, about to graduate from this small little town where I have lived my whole life. As much as I complain about how much I hate high school, I will miss every single memory I've made in those hallways. Yesterday we had our senior breakfast and athletic signing. To be completely honest, I almost became the loser that bawled their eyes out because my classmates were signing off to other colleges. It took a while for all of this to sink in, but as I watched my friends sign papers to another school besides ours, everything hit me. Some of the people I've known since I was a little kindergartner on my first day of school are going a different direction than me. We are all, in some way or another, going our separate ways. 

This is crazy. This is depressing. This is life, I guess. 

But I honestly just can't believe that these 13 years of our lives are about to end. My whole high school lifestyle will become a faint memory, and all of my friends that I used to absolutely adore last semester will be making new best friends and new lives. The whole mind set of how much money you have to spend one weekend will change to getting married, settling down, having a career. I think I just realized I'm about to have to grow up and put on my big girl pants. The very last day I will ever be a student in high school is April 30th. This Monday. And then I'm DONE. In two weeks, I will be walking across a stage in my cap and gown wondering what the heck I will do with my life. 

Let me go back to kindergarten, I'm scared.