a taboo subject

Doubting God isn't a crime.

Be more than a Christian, be a disciple of Christ. I feel as if the word "Christian" is used too loosely along with the words "love" and "hate." People say they believe in a certain religion without any knowledge of the religion itself. Preachers are fantastic, but their words should not be taken as factual information. Some people build their whole lives around one book without questioning where it came from, who wrote it, and what made that book so special. They trust the people telling them what is real and what is not real. Sometimes, it is good to question faith and dig a little deeper.

I used to say I believed in something without knowing what that entailed. Believing in God and believing in the Bible is such a life changing statement. So many people claim the lifestyle of holiness without living it out. This holy life, the life full of sacrifice, it is a tough one. Giving 100% of yourself to a God that you may or may not question is terrifying, but God deserves every percentage. If faith is never challenged then a lukewarm Christian existence is enough. If faith is never real, then your existence isn't for God, it is for you.

The moment I realized my words had no foundation was the moment my spiritual journey began. I tore down the prideful walls along with everything I had been taught over the years. Beginning with the larger questions and working my way down to the details, this was my plan. Other faiths became appealing as I studied deeper into culture, taboo subjects, and sociology. I have a little black book full of the research and factual side of religion. My conclusion was the same God I had been taught to believe, but I had come to know this God in a much deeper way, a much clearer way. The faith I had before was based from the words of humans but the faith I discovered came from the words and finger prints of God.

When the church fails, my faith does not. Because no longer does the relationship I have with God depend on the relationship I have with the church.

So the taboo subject of this post is to doubt what you have been taught. Sometimes, you need proof. And I don't believe it is a sin to look for it as my Christian friends did at that time. All of this is just my opinion, I'm not stating it as a fact. It's just been on my mind a lot lately!