I help so many people that I forget I need to be helped too. Probably one of my biggest faults. Oops.
Sometimes I feel like I really am asking for too much when I say "can you listen?" because I have so much going on. It's hard to find someone to trust and then when I do, I struggle between wanting to tell them every little thing and keeping everything hidden. I am not quite sure whether it is a good idea to open up or not but I know that if I don't I'm going to internalize all of this nonsense. Being passive aggressive isn't a good way to live life.
So umm yeah, I need help. Please pray for me, pray that God will dissolve the situations in my life and that they can become more bearable. Pray that I will grow and gain bunches of wisdom, because that's what I'm after! And pray that God gives me someone who is emotionally there for me and tries to understand even if they have never been through this kind of thing (or things). I have discovered how hard it is to find real, genuine friends lately.
Christmas break has arrived and I welcome it with open arms. Four weeks away from Harding is a really long period of time but I will survive. Hopefully.
I love reading your posts...some make me sad & and some make me happy. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are a beautiful girl, but no less human than anyone else. And unfortuneately, humans are different from animals...you can't just eat and sleep and be free all day.
I will pray for you and that you get much needed rest and time to think on your break. God will bring those friends you need into your life, probably when you're close to rock bottom; our God is like a complicated alarm clock that you can't set the right time to.
xoxo,
~Michlyn
You are such a sweetheart! Thank you so much for the prayers, I am VERY thankful for them!
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