swallowed the key

Oops. I swallowed the key to my heart. I guess I'll have to keep it locked up forever so that it will never be allowed to get carried away again. This world is too rough for me to handle this many heartbreaks anyway.

If it wasn't an accident, you will never know. I'm just trying to protect myself from what I've had to go through so many times. Throwing the key away gave me a little peace, a peace that I haven't been acquainted with in a while. I am no longer attached to a guy that I had grown so close to for years, and as much as this hurts I know it's whats best for me.

I need something to dull this pain I feel. I need to take a break from all of these emotions, it has become too much. It's like this crazy feeling I had to become a better me apart from him was a huge risk. He had the key that belonged to my heart, I gave him everything my heart had to offer. I poured out my love to someone who wasn't really ready, I'm two grade levels above him. College is a different phase in life compared to being a junior in high school. That's a huge difference. And that is why I had to swallow the key, to force myself from falling for the guys I don't need in my life.

I don't want to give the key away yet again to another fool who doesn't understand how to cherish a girl's heart.